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| So you know what I've really been noticing lately, I love kids. That's not really anything new, but I've been thinking about kids a lot lately.
I can't wait to be a mom! I can't wait to come home and have my child jump into my arms, hold on tight, and tell me they love me. I wanna be unconditionally loved by a child.
I get to see how kids can love in my Sunday School class, and it just warms my heart. This one little girl just gets so excited to see me every Sunday morning, and just runs to me. I wanna have that everyday.
So, I'm graduated and now is the time in my life where I really need to figure out what I wanna do with my life, but that's just been so hard for me. I didn't go to college this semester because I was giving myself some time to figure out what road my life needs to go on. Well, here I am, a year later, and I'm not much further on making any type of decision.
But now I'm starting to think that maybe the reason I can't think of some dream job out there, is because there really isn't one for me. Maybe I'm not supposed to have a job other than watching my children.
I just wish that I knew something...
I've never been good with making decisions and this is just such a huge one, and I'm just afraid that I'm gonna screw up my life by making the wrong decision...
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| Huh...Xanga died...I guess I knew that, and I was just gettin back into it. The Butterfly Effect 2 is a bad movie, I would advise you not to watch it. I learned tonight that I love to scream... So I was going to write something worthwhile in here...hmm...oh yea....I had a question. Is it bad to like compliments, like you think you should get more, just because you like them. I feel like I'm full of myself or somethin. This is new for me, normally I hate them, because I feel like I don't deserve them...I dunno, things are changing.... ...it all started one night at Chipotle...(I miss that place...) I was eating my dinner, minding my own business, when some complete stranger came up to me and complimented me. It was no regular compliment either..(at least for me) this was like a 5 minute one. And from then on, I just want more... I just feel so bad... | | |
| AHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I'm mad, I just wrote an entry, and I accidentally hit the wrong button....and now it's all gone...I'm not retyping it, I know you are all very sad...
Well, I was going to get off...I'm tired...shopping really takes it out of ya. Night ya'll!
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| Wow, I haven't done this in the longest time.
It's almost Christmas...and have I bought gifts yet? No! Do I know what to but? Of course not! Lol...this should be fun...but I do have money, which is nice...I hope that doesn't mean that people expect to get really nice gifts from me...hmm...
So school is gettin to me...lack of motivation...not good....I'm trying to do better with it...but it's just so boring. I wish it was all just over with. And then there's college, and I have no idea what I'm gonna do about that.
Anyone wanna come to Disneyworld for a semester with me? It'll be lots of fun! I'm not kidding either, I'm seriously considering instead of going to college next year, spending a semester down at Disneyworld, and working there with this program thing that I heard about. Problem is, I don't like to do things on my own, I like having someone there with me..
Well, that was just my random question...
So, what have I been up to lately, other than doing bad in school...work...umm...not much really, life has been pretty slow...
I think I'm gonna go, I have to clean the downstairs room before I'm allowed to do anything...later!
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| School ruins many things...if I weren't in school, I would be allowed to do something this week, and last weekend...goodness...I hate grades.
Hmm...I just thought I'd say something in here about my boredom...and it's all because I didn't do 4 math assignments...lol.
If you ever wanna hang out with me anytime before summer, I basically wouldn't count on it, if I miss one assignment, then I'm grounded for a whole week!! Ahh!
Well I'm gonna go eat something now, and watch TV...hopefully I'll fall asleep watching TV...I'm tired...
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